He is my Strength!!!

He is my Strength!!!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Happy Birthday Trevie......



This weekend my son celebrates his 17th birthday.  I cannot believe that 17 years have passed so quickly & my baby boy is 1 year away from being a 'grown man'.  I hear people say that a mothers job is never done, I hope that is true.  I hope I've done enough to prepare my son to enter this next chapter in his life but at the same time, I hope he still needs me too.  I have no doubt that he will be successful & find his way in life but I am not ready to let him go.  Trevor entered my life on Sunday May 29th, 1994 at 10:03 p.m.  He weighed 9 lbs 1 oz.  I remember a few hours after his birth, I was alone in the room & I was just staring at him.  I was in complete shock that this little person was now my responsibility.  Trevor was the BEST baby that any new mother could have asked for, the boy was always happy.  As he got older he got a little more difficult only for the fact that he was busy.  From sun up to sun down he was on the go.  If the house got quiet, he was doing something he shouldn't have been doing.  Over the past 17 yrs we've had many emergency room visits & people have joked that the child needs to be wrapped in bubble wrap & wear a helmet at all times.  Funny thing is, I still panic everytime the school calls or everytime I see him bleeding.  It has never gotten easier for me, one would think I would have become an old pro by now.  I've said before that I've learned as much from him as he's learned from me.  I truly believe that.  I think Trev entered my life at the perfect time, others didn't think so at the time, maybe I didn't think so at the time.  Without having him my life could have taken a completely different turn.  I learned responsibility, unconditional love, selflessness & compassion.  I've made many mistakes along the way but made a promise to my son to learn from them.  I am incredibly proud of who that sweet little boy has become.  I am forever thankful for the relationship that he & I share.  I feel blessed that God gave him to me & allowed me to grow with him.  I love you Trevor!  Happy birthday son!!


Thursday, May 5, 2011

Spring has Sprung.....



It officially feels like spring.  With the change in seasons I have a renewed sense of hope & optimism.  Things finally feel ok.  I have a calm & peace back in my life.  Hubby started a new job & life is back on track.  With all the ups & downs (mostly downs) we have gone through these past few years, I have come to realize that even through the worst times & hardest struggles we are always together & happy in the end.  I am optimistic about our future & anxious to see where life takes us.  I have come to certain terms with the thought that we may never have a healthy, living child together but at the end of the day, I am truly blessed.  I have 3 beautiful children that I wouldn't trade for the world.  I have a husband who treats me like I am his world.  I have found love, trust & friendship in a man that I couldn't imagine living without.  I have a roof over our heads & food on our table.  I am tired of letting stress & grief rule my thoughts & take the joys from my life.  I have recently been reminded that life is too short, it can be lost in the blink of an eye.  I want to live my life & create many lasting memories for my children & myself.  What doesn't break me can only make me stronger!!!!
Copper enjoying some sun!